Random Thought no. #1522

The awkward moment when you expected something to happen, but deep inside wished that it shouldn't,but it actually happens! :-/

Random Thought no. #1478

People who say breakups with boyfriends or girlfriends are the most painful kind have never had a friend walk away.

Random Thought no. #1179

Blink and its gone... Wish other things which i want to be that easy were also easy enough.


Dilemma : Why important things and things those matter are difficult to get and easy enough to lose and vice versa :-/

Random Thought no. #1082

As the name suggests... Thoughts at random... I will be posting thoughts worth sharing,either written by me or found somewhere.


Here it is

I Am A Piece Of Paper For You,
You Can Write Whatever Your Feelings,
Scribble Your Anger,
Take It To Absorb Your Tears,
Please Do Not Throw Me After Use
Cause When You Feel Cold,
I Will Burn Myself To Warm You

Quite Intense this one! :P

Grand Ma

This post was waiting in my drafts for the last couple of months.Hence, the time conflict.

Most of us are at home after our semester exams. So am I. And sometimes you can’t even think how much you mean to some people of whom you never even think of. On my visit to my Grand Ma’s place during these holidays, I realized that she was most eager to meet me and to talk to me. We hadn’t talked at all in a while. Seeing her wrinkled face, stooped back, worn out skin, grey hair, really gave me Goosebumps that day.

I talked to her for hours. She had so many stories of her times to tell me, which I used to ask her to narrate, as a kid. I realized communication gap had increased and mainly from my side I guess. But, the sad part was that I never felt that such a thing has happened with time. My grand ma used to be my best friend in my child hood. I still remember some glimpse of our merry time together.

That day, after hours of talking, she came to a topic that most of the people of her age are concerned about while talking to their grown up grand children, marriage. She started with some of my elder cousins and then finally came to me. I was a bit irritated by it initially and said that there a lot of my elder cousins still left, I think we should be more concerned about them right now, I am still learning, still a long time is left for mine.

She became silent and after a long pause of 2 minutes, she had that grave sadness on her face and said yes there is a still lot of time left for yours. At that very moment I couldn’t understand what had happened. But latter I realized, she had the fear of not being able to attend my wedding. And this realization scared me to death too. May be we talk less today, but I still love her and love her a lot.

Time passes fast, and while thinking of what we want and what not, we tend to ignore a lot of things which were once most important to us. J

That thought still give me Goosebumps. I don’t want to lose her, especially when I realized that I have already missed a lot of quality time that I could have spent with her. I don’t even want to think about it. I know she will be there with me always.

Love you Grand ma.

Sea of memories and Sand of time.......

Today, while i was walking on the shore, Waves roaring in and out, some calm and some thundering, a wild thought stuck my mind. Sea is like the collection of all the memories of each and every small instance that we go through in life. When every wave came to me, it made me realize that its like a random memory that hit you in your daily routine. Some small and gentle and some thundering which shake you tip to toe. But then, as they leave , i don't know, this line might seem contradictory to many, but they leave a smile on your face. A deep calm smile. All the memories are good, whether of enemies or of friends, whether it had something related to it which hurts you or something that had made you extravagant and super happy at times. Each and every memory of yours has some learning or some sweet instance associated to it, whether it was a unpleasing or a happy happy memory for you. So, they all become subtle and at the end leave a gentle smile on your face! :)

As, i was walking on the wet sand, thinking over my wild thought, i just looked back and tried to see my foot prints, but before i could see them, they were already vanished. The waves had already washed them away. I was shocked and don't know why, but scared too. A dreadful thought had taken over my mind. I thought that as i am walking, i am leaving footprints on sand.These foot prints were like the moments i go through at present, the people i meet and the emotions i go through. Will they all vanish as i go ahead ?

But, then like a sudden enlightenment , i realized what it meant. Actually, as waves are like our old memories, they come and go, this time when they came, they met the new ones, made them comfortable and made the new ones also join their group. All of them safe and sound and locked forever in the sea, the sea of memories. 

While i was standing, a big wave came and while it was leaving, it also took some sand from below my feet, thus making me feel uncomfortable and indecisive and unsure. But then, when it completely left, i saw i got even deeper in to the sand and even more stagnant and stable. So does memories do to you.

Calm at times and roars may a times. 

Once in a while, time comes, when sea roars so hard that it causes destruction, hurts people around you too.But then, again back to normal. Calm, soothing and mysterious.

These were just random observations, but appear to be true to me.Don't know about you!! :P 

As the theme of the blog, random thoughts. God !! i guess its a pattern. I go random during every holiday!! :P

But, this one(thought or observation) was quite a big one for me! :)

IT...........

People say how would you understand if you have not gone through.....

(i don agree! :P)

Can feel ITs presence

Can smell IT around

Can relate to IT, however good or bad it is

Can believe in IT, without any question.

Its a risk to trust IT so much

But its worth taking the risk

Letting things go

Letting them flow, the way they want to.

Though a lot may go into it

Still ready for the outcome,as it is destined

Have never really seen IT for myself

Still ready to give it all for IT.

These lines might seem to be senseless or incomplete to some, then this one is not for you. This one is only for those who can understand it !!

You may fill IT with whatever you want to. I have my IT.

Had written this months back, finally out of my drafts!! :P