Birds in chase........

Birds soaring at different heights and pace,
Some are, or some not in a race,
All at different levels and mindsets,
With variant goals and conquests.


New birds join in as time passes,
Some scared and some shine like glasses,
Slowly their wings pop out,
They learn to find their route.


They also start preparing for the grand chase,
For which the grown birds have already set their place,
After some struggle and rancor,
They feel weak and somber.


Soon they realize it's more then just a game,
And is about their personal pride and fame,
It's about flying at their own height,
And let the others collide and fight.


They soar at their level and cherish,
But, they didn't know their is more to relish,
They have already finished the chase,
Already ahead of all stuck in that old maze.


Just a random thought!!

Being totally random these holidayzzz

My life has become so very random these days..

I do whatever whenever i want..

life is so light and peaceful these days!!

  

Well, that doesn't mean that i don't miss my college and friends.

I miss them a lot because college is fun for me..

If i didn't do well in an exams, then its like loosing in a game for me, which i enjoy playing.So,a bit of disappointment but then yet again ready to play one more.

I think i am deviating from the topic . I love talking about my college, can't help it.

Yes, so life here at home...

You know i recently started reading a romantic kinda novel..(it's very unlike me, reading romantic novels..actually my first of such kind...:p)

i said kinda not exactly , so plzz its not segal or grashim..its something different and more casual...

I sleep late,get up late , no decided work to do.Can do whatever i want to i.e. totally RanDoM...

I like surprises and random things....

It's all going good!!

About the things i discussed earlier about " Mission Amaretto " and problems in my group, i don't know what to do . So, for the time being i am relaxing and letting Time to it's job. Things might turn out to be better after sometime..

Till then, i am free and just Chilling!!

i know it's kinda lame blog post..but what to do..can't help it....

i write what i like and i like it this way.... :D :D

You...

  
you...


you would understand
make me feel good
you would be helping hand
make me feel strong wherever i stood


you would care
make me feel special
you would share
make me feel comfortable and for my refreshal


you would be truthful
make me feel important
you would make things fruitful
make me feel exuberant
  

you would always be there for me
make me feel confident and protected 
you would trust me
make me feel  connected

  

you would be there whenever i need
like a shadow and a pleasing breeze
in sorrow and in my deed 
making me feel complete


Waiting for "you"....... 


Just a few verses, but straight from the heart :)

Old Times.....

This time it's about my old friends.

Actually i should frame it as old times..

Because those friends are still there with me and i thank god for that!!.

My earlier school from where i did my 10th, gave me life long memories that i can cherish .Those were the best years of my life which i spent there. I , Sangria and Granola (let there names be so). All of us finally came together in 9th when the class shuffling was done (Ours was the naughtiest batch ever , hence had to go through shuffling each year) . Earlier we were in different sections.
 

Granola and i shared a different kind of bonding like you know novelish, bookish or something like said in stories.We understood each others expressions . Every day , before uttering a word our eyes used to tell each other ," Is everything fine or something has gone wrong!". Sangria is a really rocking person.Sangria never us take tension in life. Sangria is the most happy go lucky person i have ever met in my life till date.
Sangria still send me messages everyday. Granola and i ,though shared a stronger connection, don't talk that often. But whenever we do , its still the same . Each other's voice tell whats wrong or things are going fine.

My school... it was the most awesomest school ever.
Our teachers were strict ...still that ease of sharing thoughts was there , which is not there everywhere.And the best part was that the students had the full freedom in organizing things. School would just tell you about what needs to be organized, how it is organized completely depend on the students.

Our school campus was big and the best part was if you want to bunk a class just go and find a corner for yourself , by the time they will catch you the class would be over.

But, the best part was the Value Education classes we used to have.
They were not as they sound.
Our teachers generally used to pick up random topics and discuss upon them . But sometimes real value education was also done . At that time those classes seemed to be really boring and useless, but now when i look back and analyze , those classes really made be a good human being . I am very proud of the values which were incurred in me due to those discussions and classes . Values as in about friendship, about others emotions and a lot more. I think you might get bored so lets not touch upon it in detail now.

Yeah Yeah !! I also have philosophical side in me,But deep inside(I don't share it with anybody except Granola) , so lets end the topic here.

Well my school gave me one more precious friend named Aspero. Aspero is one of the sweetest friend i have and the one whom i miss a lot.

I had many other good friends there but can't mention them all. I miss the Dumb Charades , Truth and Dare , Killer Police , Message , novel race and a lot of other kiddish things we used to do there. I miss them all.
I miss bunking extra classes and going to a restaurant " MKop" , the chilling hub for all of US : "The school kids" out there.

I miss it all and all those times spent together, basically the old times....
There is one more phase of my past life.. my 11th and 12th . Will share that some other time..

Was just feeling nostalgic about the old days so wrote all this. I hope it wasn't that boring.
Well, even if it was as u know, I don't care!!

 The names are yet again inspired by ice-cream flavors :p :p

Results and Friendzz

Hey i forgot to mention last time...

My exam result is out..

And i am happy, as initially i was very scared of getting failed , but finally passed with a decent score(just decent not good though :p)

whoopieeeeeee!!

  

Though almost all the people i know had a better result then me . So, all that happiness that i had just after seeing that result , vanished within a couple of hours

And that famous dialogue from 3 idiots "you feel bad when your friend fails, but even worse when he or she scores better then you" came out to be true for me.

Some of my friends scored better then me. I was happy for them but i don't know how that feeling came into me also .Well they studied so they got it.. but stillllllllllll........................

I think that's human nature.

But dude, it's surely healthy competition and nothing more then that with my friends atleast. With others it can be more intense....

Just joking :p :p

But, i am happy :D 

So many things in a single go (ahh!! stupid net).......

Hey guyzz back again with another post.Many topics to discuss in a single post this time.

You all know, i really wanted to share something with you all, day before yesterday, but my net. It Sucked(with a capital 'S') like hell.So i was not able to do much since last two days....

Guyzz... "Mission Amaretto"

It is in a very bad condition...

I am not thinking about it right now.Just concentrating on Amaretto.Amaretto is behaving differently these dayzz as you all know,but after that ,chat that i mentioned in my earlier post , i thought things are gonno smoothen up . But they are not going the way i wanted them to be.(Well thats life for u!!)

I did something stupid....really stupid , which i shouldn't have done.But as Amaretto says,"Thats the Way you are and you can't change". But i don't know how to gain back the trust Amaretto had in me . 

Don't worry i surely will.(Well i hope so i do.."fingers crossed" ) 

Well all this was December 7.

I would have shared a bit more about it on the day itself if my stupid net had not ditched me that day x-(

I had so much more in me to share at that time . But,lets forget it now!! 

Then December 8

It was also quite interesting . I had something special at home and had all the cousins together.We all went for a small outing.First a dinner and then ice-creams(yumm!! :p) And I enjoyed the ice-cream even more with the chilly weather out here.(Actually, i just loved it :p :p)

And after returning back, that hot cup of coffee. I felt like in heaven , as you don't get so lucky always!!

And you know...

From yesterday, i finally started doing what i had wished for , for these holidays. I hope it goes all well . As you know i belong to an IT college. So, might sound boring to some, but its something technical this time that i am enjoying in these holidays!! And trust me. It's fun !!

Okay,fine. I ALSO do some random stuff like pc games , movies , reading books , music and blah blah but that ALSO is still there. As i told you earlier , it's just perfect with this college. It never lets you be free and i just love it.

One more thing. i forgot. Oopsy!!

Another member from my group. Lets name that friend as Toblerone.

In the last few days i chatted with Toblerone a lot. Okay not very much. But still a lot . I shared a few things with Toblerone and realized that the friend with whom i should have been most comfortable , there were a lot of things i should have told Toblerone and i hadn't. But, Toblerone is sweet and my very good friend. I hope i will cover up for this soon.  

I think i have already wrote a lot for a single post. Hope you didn't get bore. 

What to do.This stupid net!!  Lets forget it .I will be back with some more Random Thoughts :p and yes Mission Amaretto :(  (Hope things go well with Amaretto asap "fingers crossed")  soon.

An Ordinary Day...Or......

Today, was as ordinary a day, till evening when finally i found a Mission.

I had normal food, usual chat with friends and cousins, a game of nfs, then some face-book. It was like any other ordinary day. But, in the evening i was chatting with one of my group members. The group about which i talked earlier(if u read my earlier posts). Well, it was with one of my two besties. So, let me give that friend a name Amaretto.

As you know Amaretto and i are not going through best of times in friendship.So, today when Amaretto chatted with me normally like any other friend would do, by teasing and all, i was happy. We also discussed about new laptops, can't help it now, IT college can't let you imagine your life without tech talks.

And then after a long chat Amaretto realized "OH SHIT i was not talking to you. How did that happen?"

(So,this showed that Amaretto was angry but still considered me a friend "Thank God for that!!  phew")

And then tried to end the chat there and then. But,today i insisted Amaretto to chat and forced to tell me what is it that is bothering Amaretto.I insisted a lot . Amaretto also tried to avoid, but finally as a favor i was given a hint.That too incomplete and very short.TWO WORDS!! I don't know what to do now.I really want things to be as they were before in my group and more over with Amaretto.

But,still atleast Amaretto said something about it.I have been waiting for it since a month or so. And finally it happened today.But, the good part is atleast i have a clue of what has gone wrong.Though it's just 2-3 words but better then nothing. These winters i know what to do. I have a mystery to solve. Mission Amaretto.

Will be updating about Mission Amaretto regularly.

And if you are again wondering from where does this name Amaretto comes..Well its again an ice-cream flavour :p

Perceptions

Just something which i had gone through recently.Just an experience.

College has made me come across a lot of people and of different kinds.

People with distinct  moods, mannerisms,  temperaments  and   different

goals  in life. And the  ways that they use to  achieve their  goals are also

different.

Apart from that, my experience with these people has been kind of unexpected.

One      of    my   very   good   acquaintances in  college,    almost    a    friend,(let me call that person Ferro)seemed to be a really nice person.

But latter as time passed i realized, u can't  always be right  about people. Ferro  is quite different from what i had imagined . I really feel that i  should have never known Ferro  at all. Sometimes, people are good at portraying things.

On the contrary, there is  a  person(let me call that person Roche) i  don't know why..i  didn't  like  Roche  initially. May be because  some people had   already build   up   perceptions  in  my   mind  about  Roche. But,  now  after   knowing Roche   for  myself  i  realized,Roche   is also  a really   nice person  to  be with.

Well, you might be thinking why am i sharing this? Actually, this was the first time in life that my first perceptions about people were  wrong. May be  this is also a part of college life and  growing up. I hope  i don't experience it again because it was not that good an experience to have.

And if you are thinking from where does these names ferro and roche came. I recently had an ice-cream which had a name a bit similar to it :p

College and Friendzzzzzzz!!

Sorry, for a late post readers!! But, this time it is about my friendzz and college life!!

It's not been long, that i have been to college. Every thing seemed to be a fairy tale for me.The  IT  environment,  IT  people  talking  and  jokes about  coding ,projects, Hardware,security breaches.

Dude,you name it and it was all there.Every tiny thing i had ever thought.To top it all, I have a wonderful group  of friends. Each of them  special to me  in one  way or the other.

Everything was so fucking perfect that,

i doubted that was it all for real!!

Then came the big 

BUT...........

After a small span of holidays, some  of the stuff  changed. Though  college   became even more awesome for me. I did well in the labs of my favorite subject.But,there was something which i could sense, but tried to avoid because i never thought that such a thing will be possible.

My group...

I don't know what happened to them.Suddenly, they all started to behave  differently . Specially, two of them and to  again make  it even more  interesting and rejuvenating, the two most dear to me.

Maybe my bestest buddies!!

But, as i said i ignored it at that time and may be that's what went wrong. Now, when i realized it and started making tries to make it work, but nothing seemed to work.

So, after making constant tries for about 2 -3 weeks, i finally said to myself dude i am there friend not ........

I DON'T CARE!! (actually, deep inside i did, but it feels good if you say it)

It wasn't easy.(They are my best friends after all!! :p :p )

But, you won't believe what happened.

Actually, i things are going back to normal again,but at a really soft pace i must say...

Even if it takes time...

I WON"T MIND

Because i love them and now whether i accept it or not but, they  are an integral  part of my life and will remain one!!

Love you all guyzz!!

Moral of the story is:

• Friendz (even your best ones) are hard to understand at times.
• Try and sense out things at that right time, otherwise situation might go  even worse
• Once you are late, don't worry trust your besties..they know you and will be back to normal again.

So,at the end, after this long discussion,

the conclusion is,

When u feel... i don care 

is the best state of mind(hey but conditions apply*)

I'am the boss..its my life dude..

It feels like hell
I don't know when gonno be well
I try to figure it out
But when i see around


There is some new world
Waiting for me to swirl
I don't like the way it's going
I want it my way rolling


I am not  here to take everybody's shit
Just throw it away in vampiric pit
Just please get lost
In the deep frost


This is my life,I'am the boss!
You don't understand me,it's your loss!




Naah nt that serious...jus wrote it so that it rhyme..