Complex... But not all the time....

Life as it used to be when i was in school.. friends all around...
friends for different situations :) friends with whom you laugh,
friends with whom you share secrets, friends with whom you take advise
like an elderly,a bunch of bestest friends, a bunch of hi bye friends, a bunch of
studying friends and a bunch of junior friends and yes some tuition friends.


you were never alone whatever the situation be... you always had 3-4 people
to support you. Not because they felt forced to support you because they cared
enough for you.


Life moves on and so do you..


I thank and remember each and every school friend of mine..


I miss all the classes we bunked together
i miss all the dumb charred games we played
The silly dares that we did
all the scolding we got together
all the punishments we experienced together ,many a times just to give company to our friends


Every single trip to our popular hangouts instead of attending an extra class
every single chowmein plate that we faught for
fight for that last sip of pepsi
that fight after eating your friends tiffin before break


I miss all those times we talked and i "The Counselor" solved problems.
(i was known amongst my friends that way)


Most importantly i miss each and every person with whom i had a fight
you were the people who helped me being a better person.
you helped me realise why i have friends.
But i am sorry if i had ever hurt you.


miss you all guys.. all my school-mates..
my school life would have been incomplete without you all


As i said.. life moves on and so did I..


I also moved on and now am in a different phase of life.


Here i have a lot of people to talk to..
Have people who might stand beside me
But the difference is, its not because they care..
its just because.....


But finally after half an year i have found some friends apart from my "Group"..
a person who is like a guide to me, whom i respect,
then a couple of good friends too.
And yes a friend who is not in my group 
but i still love to hangout with.(tweety)

Initially, college started at an happy note.
Everything just near to perfect. But, as we all know..
Only one thing is constant in life that is change.
my perfect life also changed a bit.

There was loneliness which could not be filled
by whatever i do. 

But, then i talked to someone, whom i termed as a guide(BJM),who told me.

its just soo soo temporary

  u find best frienz

  u find bfs gfs..

  dey cum ..

  go away frienz are frienz..  but den u accept that u cud get away too  but u're mom dad are gonna be dere   

And a lot more.. of course i can't share the whole of it. But, that was something which
really brought back life to me. After this conversation, i also talked to one of my bestest
friends named bella. And coincidently bella also told me the same as BJM did.
That was the time i thanked  BJM.


So, after so many ups and downs...
I have managed to find some good friends, BJM and tweety and af-course my group too..


At the end i realized...

• Life is not even that bad as it seems at times.

• You just need to explore more and give it some more time.

• And someone told me,"Stop thinking much,just eat and have fun!!" :P :P

So,thats what i am doing and i think that you should also do, whenever feeling low.
Life is beautiful, just change your way of looking at it.
It is not as complex as it seems to be at times..

First day after a break........

Ya..Ya...
First day in college after holidays........

Started off well...

:) -> Today, i was the first one to see the morning fog and to get ready.
:( -> The very sight of fog outside pissed me off.


:) -> Was the first one to my class along with one of my friends.
:( ->Got bored for initial 15-20 mins.

:) ->Wished everybody Happy New Year.
:( ->In course also had to accept wishes from people i don't care much about.

:) ->Then all my friends reached and we talked, talked and talked...
:( ->Had to stop it for the registration.

:) ->Was eagerly waiting for our breakfast (snacks provided to us by our college :D)
:( ->We didn't get it on time and had to wait till registration.

:) ->Finally had my breakfast and roamed around in the college after a long time.
:( ->Had classes on the very first day.

:) ->Got a lot of interesting stuff for my cell today.
:( ->It got discharged, waiting for it to get alive again.

:) ->Played something for which i was waiting for, since 1 month.
:( ->Had to play against an idiotic creature with some irritating comments of his...arrgghh...didn't say anything coz didn't want to ruin my mood.


:) ->Realized some people are never gonno change and so am i...bring it on... :D
:( ->No..no more bad stuff....

 

Results and Friendzz

Hey i forgot to mention last time...

My exam result is out..

And i am happy, as initially i was very scared of getting failed , but finally passed with a decent score(just decent not good though :p)

whoopieeeeeee!!

  

Though almost all the people i know had a better result then me . So, all that happiness that i had just after seeing that result , vanished within a couple of hours

And that famous dialogue from 3 idiots "you feel bad when your friend fails, but even worse when he or she scores better then you" came out to be true for me.

Some of my friends scored better then me. I was happy for them but i don't know how that feeling came into me also .Well they studied so they got it.. but stillllllllllll........................

I think that's human nature.

But dude, it's surely healthy competition and nothing more then that with my friends atleast. With others it can be more intense....

Just joking :p :p

But, i am happy :D 

An Ordinary Day...Or......

Today, was as ordinary a day, till evening when finally i found a Mission.

I had normal food, usual chat with friends and cousins, a game of nfs, then some face-book. It was like any other ordinary day. But, in the evening i was chatting with one of my group members. The group about which i talked earlier(if u read my earlier posts). Well, it was with one of my two besties. So, let me give that friend a name Amaretto.

As you know Amaretto and i are not going through best of times in friendship.So, today when Amaretto chatted with me normally like any other friend would do, by teasing and all, i was happy. We also discussed about new laptops, can't help it now, IT college can't let you imagine your life without tech talks.

And then after a long chat Amaretto realized "OH SHIT i was not talking to you. How did that happen?"

(So,this showed that Amaretto was angry but still considered me a friend "Thank God for that!!  phew")

And then tried to end the chat there and then. But,today i insisted Amaretto to chat and forced to tell me what is it that is bothering Amaretto.I insisted a lot . Amaretto also tried to avoid, but finally as a favor i was given a hint.That too incomplete and very short.TWO WORDS!! I don't know what to do now.I really want things to be as they were before in my group and more over with Amaretto.

But,still atleast Amaretto said something about it.I have been waiting for it since a month or so. And finally it happened today.But, the good part is atleast i have a clue of what has gone wrong.Though it's just 2-3 words but better then nothing. These winters i know what to do. I have a mystery to solve. Mission Amaretto.

Will be updating about Mission Amaretto regularly.

And if you are again wondering from where does this name Amaretto comes..Well its again an ice-cream flavour :p

College and Friendzzzzzzz!!

Sorry, for a late post readers!! But, this time it is about my friendzz and college life!!

It's not been long, that i have been to college. Every thing seemed to be a fairy tale for me.The  IT  environment,  IT  people  talking  and  jokes about  coding ,projects, Hardware,security breaches.

Dude,you name it and it was all there.Every tiny thing i had ever thought.To top it all, I have a wonderful group  of friends. Each of them  special to me  in one  way or the other.

Everything was so fucking perfect that,

i doubted that was it all for real!!

Then came the big 

BUT...........

After a small span of holidays, some  of the stuff  changed. Though  college   became even more awesome for me. I did well in the labs of my favorite subject.But,there was something which i could sense, but tried to avoid because i never thought that such a thing will be possible.

My group...

I don't know what happened to them.Suddenly, they all started to behave  differently . Specially, two of them and to  again make  it even more  interesting and rejuvenating, the two most dear to me.

Maybe my bestest buddies!!

But, as i said i ignored it at that time and may be that's what went wrong. Now, when i realized it and started making tries to make it work, but nothing seemed to work.

So, after making constant tries for about 2 -3 weeks, i finally said to myself dude i am there friend not ........

I DON'T CARE!! (actually, deep inside i did, but it feels good if you say it)

It wasn't easy.(They are my best friends after all!! :p :p )

But, you won't believe what happened.

Actually, i things are going back to normal again,but at a really soft pace i must say...

Even if it takes time...

I WON"T MIND

Because i love them and now whether i accept it or not but, they  are an integral  part of my life and will remain one!!

Love you all guyzz!!

Moral of the story is:

• Friendz (even your best ones) are hard to understand at times.
• Try and sense out things at that right time, otherwise situation might go  even worse
• Once you are late, don't worry trust your besties..they know you and will be back to normal again.

So,at the end, after this long discussion,

the conclusion is,

When u feel... i don care 

is the best state of mind(hey but conditions apply*)